An email to my best friend
Hey, hope u had a wonderful weekend.
I've been doing a lot of thinkin' since friday night. Apparently, someone's question about what I want had forced me to think. Especially now that I am so afraid by not telling the truth will cost me more than by become a brave person and spill it out. Though I may have a good reason for not saying it in the first place.
I thought I told him already, I thought he knew. But maybe it has not been clear to him than it is for me now.
What I really want to say by telling him about my dream (about her), was my way of telling him that I have to admit that her...
Take it light, please
I don't think that I am really fall for him.. Well, maybe not yet.. Maybe it will never be.. I don't think he really has the quality for it. But yet, he makes me happy.. He kinda make me forget that I was broken hearted when I left for my holiday..
I was not sure at that time.. I was being so low and was thinking it is just for the sake of fun. And he is even cute.. I have nothing too loose..
And yet.. After I left.. He was like blurted out all the things that he feels for me. I was amazed.. Is it possible? Or maybe he just falls for the image that he thought he sees. It was not the real...
Revenge is really sweet..
There was a time when I really admired him. Admired him for what he did, admired him for the road he chose, admired him for moving from his safe shelter, although he might have other choice at that time. That was being irresponsible, insensitive little bastard like he used to be..
There was a time when I really obsessed about him.. physically. Attracted to him, sexually.. there was a time when I had to take so many cold showers just because I thought of him.
There was a time when I thought I had found the rough diamond I've been looking for so long. There was a time that I would not let him...
Kenyataan itu..
Lucu ya.. di saat gw mo mengambil keputusan untuk hidup lebih sehat.. live my life to the fullest. Eh kenyataan ini menohok gw tiba-tiba..
I never even think that this could happen to me.. Padahal kenapa nggak? Gw ngerokok.. gw suka makan junk food.. melahap semua makanan yg gak sehat itu.. jarang olah raga.. iya.. kenapa nggak..?
Gak pernah kepikir untuk ngecek sebelumnya.. Iya, I know.. harusnya rutin ya, setaun sekali, or even setaun 2 kali.. Gw malah belun pernah med check up. Pdhal uda disuruh dokter dari kapan tau. Takut gw diabet.. secara bokap gw diabet..
Akhirnya tadi pagi,...
