My family? Is the sort of family you wouldn't want to mess with. Quite powerful and will make sure members will be avenged when undermined. We eat threats for breakfast..
Sexual Preference:
Really Straight
Astrological Sign:
Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
Existing as:
Shadowkin
Smoking:
Daily
Liquor:
Social drinker. One or two
Exercise:
Walking to the car only
Your Home:
Live alone
Biography/About:
I am now independent, I might say. After a struggle as to who controls my life, I now get to decide for myself. Not without consequence of course, but endurable. I do miss the perks of a pampered life BUT freedom IS bliss!
Likes:
hanging out with friends; reading books; shopping;
The Problem with Hello
At last, I think I finally figured out how to let go. Doesn't mean my heart isn't breaking tho.
Some might think that I just hang on coz I know there may not be anyone else that would come and show me that I'm worth something. It's not that. And I don't owe anybody an explanation.
I haven't stopped praying and I sincerely want to know that you're happy. That I never meant to be difficult. That your friendship meant alot, above anything else.
Endless
How much of my life will I spend looking...
For happiness.. love.. peace.. contentment..
How many times do I have to let go before I find what's mine?
How many more goodbyes..
How many more not meant for me's..
How much more regret do I have to swallow..
How much longer do I have to pretend I dont hurt as much..
How much longer do I have to pretend of a next lifetime to be waiting..
With a promise of ending the sadness I always try to hide..
There's got to be something for me..
Sssshhhhhhh!!!!
I don't know how to describe what I feel right now.
I think I'm angry. On the verge of crying.. or screaming.. whatever. Everything just seems to be falling apart.
I'm not gonna be put down. I can get through all this.
Time to get down to business.
No one will ever see me break down ever again.
Restless
I do not know why I'm holding on to an illussion that one day I'd look up and find you there.
How could that be? You are an amazing person with your whole life ahead of you.
You can do much much better.
And for once in my life I fervently wish I was something else. Somebody a lot less different .
But who am I kidding?
I'm surprisingly having a very difficult time with this. I have walked away from people before and never had I looked back (or regretted).. So forgive me if I hold on a little bit longer.
I promise this would be over as soon as I can.
