for the past two weeks
my legs are swollen like hell.. i have a neck and backpain constantly... difficulty in sleeping and breathing, loosing my appetite, my liver is in pain and a few more symptoms of HEART FAILURE. thought it was only a symptoms and that i am too young to face this... but i was wrong. because i just get the results from all the tests done earlier in PPUM... and so it be...
those are really the early synptoms of heart failure. help!!! i need a ... a..... a..... anything!!!!!
am back!!!
with a lot of stories, with a lot of plans and also with a new ME. i guess duk tinggal sorang and without family for someone like me is something bad.
i'll be back writing. and speaking about writing, this time.. not only a blog. it'll be bigger than that. than this. bigger than a blog, bigger than a journal. and it concists of all my experiences. my life. basically.. yeah, a life journal... a more complicated thing. hehe....:D
catch u guys later k...
miss u all like crazy la weh!!!! like crazy!!!
think
shit happen...
people change...
but still, life must go on.
i've been through a lot lately. been thinking, been scanning, been planning. been.. been... been busy.
structuring, managing and everything. but for what? and about what? about life. about love. about being a good daughter and sister.
but still, i'm thinking about all my friends. all of them out there. Lin, Lenz, Sayapdewa, xdekeje, Sis Dona, Sis Wynn, Sis Susan, Sis Tika, my bro Rudy, just to name a few. but seriously, i miss everything that makes me happy. not that i'm not happy all this time when i wasn't with them or...
hilang... dan hilang lagi...
tak ... tak ... aku tak hilang. ada kat sini. cam biasa. kerja. hidup dan berjuang. tapi aku tak sihat. secara mental dan fizikal. zahir dan batin aku tak sihat. tak berada dalam kondisi yang bagus. sentiasa ada aral yang melintang lalu membujur patah. tapi aku tetap relaks. tetap cool. tetap tenang. ini semua dugaan-dugaan.
maafkan aku tak boleh sahut terus cabaran juring. aku tak sihat makanya, setting timedateline kat minda aku lari sedikit. lalu terlepas tarikh. aku silap perhitungan. tapi tak pe la. bukan.. bukan sebab aku takut, bukan sebab aku hangat-hangat tahi ayam. tapi tahi sebatu...
