|Main blog:||Somehow Smiling|
|Birthday:||September 13th 1980|
|Occupation:||Political / Govt / Military|
|Race/lineage:||White / Caucasian|
|Location:||United Kingdom, Luton|
|Height:||5' 2" (157 cm)|
|Vision:||No assisted eyewear|
|Hair Style:||Straight - Medium|
|Tattoo Info:||Upper left arm - corn-circle inspired symbol meaning First Sight, left shoulder - Angel.
To come: Right shoulder - demon, spine - Dragon Queen ("Now dragon on your back / can't hold you back / and your dreams / they will be free"), upper right arm - Element animals and Fylgja.|
|Piercing Info:||Just the one - tongue. |
|Relationship Status:||Single - Never Married|
|Family Info:||Parents - divorced. Ma - seeing mysterious, but sweet-seeming guy. Da - seeing high school crush.
Two younger sisters. S - in Devon, shop manager, in a bad relationship. A - in Wales, finishing her degree, about to get married to a sweet boy.|
|Sexual Preference:||Bisexual leaning toward Men|
|Astrological Sign:||Virgo (Aug 23 - Sept 22)|
|Your Home:||Live with pets|
|Biography/About:||After a 7-year long gap-year I've finally pulled myself together enough to get accepted at UWE Bristol to read Linguistics and English Language. I'm still scared about going, as I still have problems with my sociophobia but I've got group, a shrink, a psychotherapist and far too many meds to help put me on the road to being fixed by September... Wish me luck.
I'm not very good with people. I try, and maybe I try too hard, but they tend to disappear after a while. There're a few darling people who I've been with forever... but generally everyone else comes and goes.
Sometimes I wonder if they're imaginary. Sometimes I wonder if the whole of existence is imaginary.
I follow Asatru, although I'm still very new to it. I struggled for a while with it because my parents brought me up Christian, and because I'm on medication for loolahlity. Finally, with the latter, I realised my loolahlity doesn't matter. This is how the gods wanted me, this is how I am. If it weren't for the travels as I was growing up through the realm I dubbed "the world in my head" I doubt I would have understood soul travel as I'm growing to now.
I believe in The Tribe. The Tribe is an ideal, something to strive for. I believe in a future where I'll live as part of a community, each person equal and respectful of one another, without the pre-set social restrictions of peerage, monogamy... or the need for people to prove they're "better" than those around them. There is no "better", only different... and our differences make us stronger.
The Tribe is a long way off, though. For now, I just try to live... day by day and moment by moment.|
|Likes:||Acting; adventures; androgyny; angels; art; Asatru; awareness; badgers; balance; bergamot; biting; blades; blood; blues (music); books; Borneo; bosoms; bouncing; Bristol; candles; care; turning cartwheels; castles; cats; classical (music); comics; the colour of the horizon on a clear summer's day; courage; crafts; crochet; cutting; dancing; death; debates; demons; the director's commentary; discipline; dm's; dragons; dreads; dreams; eavesdropping; essays; exploring; eyes; faith; fantasy (general); fiction; films; fire; flash games; flying; Freyja; funk (music); gaming; geckos; geekishness; glitter; my goddess; graphic novels; Heimdall; hills; hoboing; honesty; honour; hospitality; industry; innocence; the interweb; Jack Daniels; jasmine; jazz (music); jiggling; the jungle; kittens; knitting; knobbing; knowledge; my lady; language; laughing; learning; leaves; legend; lesbians; life; lightning; lips; listening; lists; llamas; loyalty; Lush; lust; Malaysia; manic episodes; metal (music); mirrors; the moon; motorbikes; movies; music (general); mythology; nightmares; non-fiction; nymphomania; obsessing; the outdoors; passion; pasta; people-watching; perseverance; piercings; pineapple; pirates; plagiarism; playing; poetry; potatoes; profile sites; questions; rainforests; randomness; reading; research; respect; responsibility; rock (music); roleplay; rosemwary; rufus; scars; sci-fi (general); sequential art; shiny things; Salad Fingers; self-reliance; singing; snakes; storms; survival; swallows (bird); swashbuckling; tattoos; thinking; thunder; travel; trees (climbing); trees (general); Trekforce; the tropics; truth; turtles; universe-hopping; violets; watching; webcomics; wenching; whorishness; wolves; writing; zombies|
|Dislikes:||Textspeak outside of texts, narrow-minded bigots, passionless people, dentists, being cold, big furry spiders, sleeping alone, people trying to force their opinions on me under the guise of "help".|
|Interests:||Sequential Art, music, film, theatre, art, thinking, exploring, webcomics, gaming, reading, listening, crochet|
|People/Heroes:||Dee - who survives no matter what life throws her way, Sir Mule - who should have a revolving bedroom door|
|Books:||Mansfield Park, Jennifer Government, Idlewild, Where's My Cow?|
|Authors:||Terry Pratchett, Jane Austen, Margaret Attwood, Tom Holt, Andrew Harman, Robert Rankin, Piers Anthony, Isaac Asimov, Lewis Carroll, Anne McCaffrey, Herman Melville, Robin Hobb, C J Cherryh, Douglas Adams, Diana Wynne Jones, Monica Hughes, R L Stevenson, Ben Elton|
|Music Genres:||rock, metal, punk, classical, funk, jazz, blues, soul, alternative|
|Bands/Artists:||Deftones, Capdown, Snapcase, VAST, Silverchair, Green Day, Angelica, Kittie, Hatebreed, Rage Against the Machine, System of a Down, Coal Chamber, CKY, Less Than Jake, Placebo, Incubus, Shostakovich, Dvorak, Vivaldi, Grieg, Ella Fitzgerald, K's Choice, Korn, Rammstein, The Who, Badly Drawn Boy, Liszt|
|Albums/CDs:||Neon Ballroom - Silverchair, Civil Disobedients - Capdown, Take A Look In The Mirror - Korn, Adrenaline - deftones, Around the Fur - deftones|
|Songs:||Emotion Sickness - Silverchair, Wish You Were Here - Incubus, Flames - VAST, Deep Inside- KoRn, Lhabia - Deftones, Suite for Jazz, No.2 - IV: Waltz - Shostakovich, Why Did You Let My Kitten Die? - Angelica|
|TV Shows:||Fraggle Rock, Futurama, The Muppet Show, The Simpsons, Little Angels, Blue Planet, Buffy, Angel, Farscape, Fawlty Towers, The Young Ones, Malcolm in the Middle, Scrubs, Dr Who|
|Movies:||Rear Window, Bed of Roses, Labyrinth, The Dark Crystal, Mulholland Drive, The Rock, Existenz, Bound, Chicago, Moulin Rouge, Tank Girl, About A Boy, The Red Shoes, Clerks, The Importance of Being Earnest, South Park, A City of Angels, Happy Gilmore, The Green Mile, Metropolis, Plunkett & Macleane, Crazy People, The Alien Saga, Kids in the Hall: Brain Candy, Titan A.E., Below, The Game, Mona Lisa Smile, Erin Brockovich, Finding Nemo, Monsters Inc, Starship Troopers, A Walk in the Clouds, Back to the Future, The Shawshank Redemption, Finding Neverland, Pirates of the Caribbean, Hero, House of Flying Daggers, Flatliners, Pitch Black, Phone Booth, The Breakfast Club, Spun|
|Actors:||Judi Dench, Heath Ledger, Alan Rickman, Orlando Bloom, Julia Roberts, Nicole Kidman, Nicolas Cage, Maggie Smith, Joe Pantoliano, Johnny Depp, Warwick Davis, Jamie Foxx, Jim Carrey, Gary Oldman, John Malkovich, Minnie Driver, Pete Postlethwaite|
|Colors:||The blue of the horizon on a clear summer's day|
|Pets/Animals:||A kitten called Rufus|
|Food:||Duck and vegetables cooked in a bamboo stalk over an open fire|
|Quotes:||"The perfect moment is now. Be glad of it" - Thief of Time, Pratchett|
|Places:||Malaysian Borneo; Bristol|
|Artists:||Cezanne, Courbet, Cabanal, Rubens|
Relationships, Friendships and Flings|
I had a revelation last night, regarding why 7 major (and multiple minor) characters from Aelis' life have disappeared.
This is how it works:
Contact is made by one party or t'other, sometimes both simultaneously. Aelis develops an interest in the other person but does not voice this interest. Chat ensues. T'other person expresses an interest in Aelis. Aelis reveals her interest in t'other person. They discuss the merits of furthering the friendship / relationship / fling. They either develop the friendship / relationship / fling, or go back to chatting, depending on the eventual resolution...
I feel I ought apologise, readers all, for my absence from this space.
Truth is I've been suckered in by the evil that is MySpace. It's a convenient package, I'll admit, but there're some nasty beasties hiding in those banner ad's, and some equally nasty beasties with profiles too!
I came back here because of Solender. I'm subscribed to his blog, so every so often a pearl, a gem, a veritable diamond drops into my Inbox. One did today. It reminded me why this place was so valuable to me, how it still could be.
And so I vent...
There's this guy... There's always a guy, or a girl, when it...
and 9 lbs gone...
Transference, Transcendence, Sublimity
One swirl can mean a dozen things, one etch can cut further than a dozen scratches... can reach deeper than a hundred ribbons...
People will see melodrama in this. I'm not the first to be inked. I'm not the first to feel this way.
I don't see melodrama. It is my first inkage. It is the first time I've felt this. Why should I be silent?
Prozac Princess '06