Ex Boyfriends Suck
So, Brittany and I both have has a little drama with our exes this week. Or maybe I should say "the" exes. Payton proposed to Brittany via text message and I found out that Cooper has an amazing new girlfriend that he loves and is the best thing that ever happened.
And now all we can do is discuss why it seems to be impossible to actually get over and get past your first love because neither of us have.
And the stress erupted into a fight/bitch fest/ sad fest in the car on the way home, which may have been inevitable.
And now I am watching Twilight deleted scenes and hoping that when I...
Bad and getting worse
I am in a crappy mood and I have decided to rant:
1. I ordered a custom made Book of Shadows back in September. At the time, this was the highest dollar amount I had ever spent on a single purchase and the decision to spend that money as well as the very important decision of selecting a ritual tool that will be with me for the rest of my life was not take lightly. I have still yet to receive the book. I was originally told that the book would ship around January 15th. Around that day I emailed the owners of the company and asked if the book had shipped. I got a very prompt reply telling me...
And so it fell through
So the thing with the guy from my history class is officially null and void. And yet, hope has not been lost quite yet. Probably because I made the decision to stop things after our first "date".
The short version of what happened is, we went lunch together and an already uncomfortable situation was further amplified by his horrendous table manners and mumbling.
Brittany keeps saying I should give him another chance but honestly, there is no way. If someone can even control them self on a first date and not completely gorge them self on their food then there is no hope for the future....
And on a more serious (and magical) note...
I am wearing my 7 knot love anklet right now, I have been burning candles in my room for love, I carried my love bottle for the past few days...
Last night I prayed that the Gods would see it fit to send love it to my life...
After a point, the prayer broke into begging.
Please, if this doesn't work out I think I might lose hope all together and that terrifies me.
If I'm single for another year, I can't even imagine what state I'll be in.
Even now, after only 2 years, I know that I have become closed off.
After 3... I can't really consider that.
I will continue to pray. And, if I...
