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Friday
| Main blog: | Friday's Child | | Birthday: | June 19th | | Gender: | Female | | Occupation: | Retired | | Education: | Some college | | Religion: | Agnostic | | Service Attendance: | Never | | Race/lineage: | Latino / Hispanic | | Location: | United States, Louisiana, Westbank of New Orleans |
| Body Size: | Slender | | Height: | 4' 11" (150 cm) | | Eyes: | Dark Brown | | Vision: | Glasses/Spectacles | | Hair Color: | Black | | Hair Style: | Wavy - Long | | Facial Hair: | None | | Skin Tone: | Medium Brown | | Best Feature: | Legs | | Clothing Pref.: | Tattered | | Undies: | Briefs - Bikini | | Tattoo Info: | Three -- abdomen, hiney and bosom | | Piercing Info: | Five in left ear - four in right ear | | More Details: | The camera hates me and I hate it right back. |
| Relationship Status: | Single - Involved | | Family Info: | Youngest of four (boy, girl, boy, girl) and my mother's favorite. | | Sexual Preference: | Straight/Heterosexual | | Astrological Sign: | Gemini (May 21 - June 21) | | Existing as: | Human | | Smoking: | Quit | | Liquor: | Gave it up | | Exercise: | Regularly | | Your Home: | Live with another | | Biography/About: | Recovering drug addict since 9/1990. Diagnosed with MS 12/2004. | | Likes: | music, dancing, singing, chai latte, reading, the ocean, Phillipine Mango, historical fiction, Snowballs (called Snowcones everywhere else) | | Dislikes: | cruelty, know-it-alls, racism and all other forms of negative "ism", spam, email, judgemental or closed-minded people, rap, thug-speak, bullies, hurricane season, people who don't respect the fact that I'm agnostic (I don't try to force my opinions on other people -- I admire people who have faith, I wish they wouldn't force their beliefs on me), | | Interests: | writing, embroidery, cartooning |
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| People/Heroes: | My Mama, oldest brother, sister, Dee (Chinwagzz), Paul, Meecie, Baby K, my bestfriend's granddaughter, Happy Bunny, (okay, so he's not a real person but if he was, he'd be me), Candy (Daily Thoughts), Deirdre (Inspired) | | Books: | Da Vinci Code, Witching Hour, Saga of Baby Divine, Secret Diary of Anne Boleyn | | Authors: | Dan Brown, Anne Rice | | Music Genres: | Jazz, R&B, Blues, Torch Songs | | Bands/Artists: | Bobby Caldwell, Diana Krall, Will Downing, Queen Latifah, Beyonce, Michael Buble, Janet Jackson, Lydia Pense | | Albums/CDs: | Natalie Cole Take A Look, Kenny Loggins Outside in the Redwoods, Joni Mitchell Wild Things Run Fast, Soundtrack - August Rush | | Songs: | Baby It's Cold Outside, Leap of Faith, Fever, What Are You Doing The Rest of Your Life, | | TV Shows: | CSI, CSI Miami, Boston Legal, House, The Mentalist, Big Brother, Survivor, | | Movies: | LOTR, Pay It Forward, American President, Love Actually, Gaslight, Rebecca, HAPPY FEET, The Lake House, AI: Artificial Intelligence, August Rush, | | Actors: | Sean Connery, Viggo Mortensen, Michael Madsen, Alex O'Loughlin, Will Smith | | Games: | Scrabble, Word Craft, Diablo, Spider Solitaire, Backgammon, Bejeweled 2, Luxor, Ravenhearst | | Sports: | Football (Saints and Steelers), Baseball (Yankees), Basketball (Orlando Magic and New Orleans Hornets) | | Colors: | PINK | | Pets/Animals: | black, long-haired dust bunnies | | Cars/Motorcyles: | 4Runner | | Season: | Autumn | | Food: | Lasagna, Mexican Food, Hummus, Tabbouleh, | | Drink: | Iced Tea, Chai Latte, Starbucks Mocha, Starbucks Cinnamon Dolce Latte | | Quotes: | Mean people suck, Overmedicated for your effin' protection, The way people treat you says more about them than it does about you | | Position: | Unpopular |
One step forward ...
It's hard to respond to y'all who have encouraged, supported and comforted me when I've no good news to offer. Sometimes though any news is good news and I've some news that indicates a little step forward.
I have a place to go. It's not far enough way and not the most ideal situation but it's a place to be where I'll be safe. He had agreed to me staying until I could "get my act together" to have all my things moved to California -- maybe two weeks. He promised I would be safe. Another promise down the drain since he made the promise in the morning and that same evening came home...
Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde
I re-read the my last post and realized ... I don't know this man I've lived with for nearly twelve years. However there are several things I do know that make me wonder what sort of madness is going on in this man's mind when he's drunk.
First, I believe he believes I think I'm better than he is somehow because I used to have money, I've traveled and I've experienced much more of the world than he has. I don't think that at all. In fact, I think much less of myself because of how I threw that all away with drugs and alcohol. Since he's doing exactly the same thing, he certainly...
There isn't enough compassion in the world ...
He was yelling at me, standing so close to me I could feel the warmth of his breath and spittle on my cheek. "I'll cave your face in." he screamed. I calmly and pointedly said, "Back off of me." He came even closer and spat at me, "Go ahead, bitch, jump off!" I didn't move and wondered what the hell 'jump off" meant. I was thinking how ghetto, gangsta and guttural he gets when he's drunk. I didn't respond but didn't move or break eye contact either. He kept screaming, "C'mon! Jump off, bitch!". "Do you want to go to jail?" I asked trying not to sound too condescending. "I've...
A day of loss ...
Six year old loss ...
Six years ago today, we lost Mama. Six years later it still hurts.
Recent loss -- an open letter to a loved one ...
I know you don't agree with everything I say or believe in. I know that sometimes you're so passionate about what you believe that you stop listening to me or you don't hear what I'm saying, only what you think I'm saying. You may be angry with me ... honestly, I don't know what you're feeling or going through. I don't know because you don't tell me. Maybe it's not your intent, but it feels like you're withdrawing your love from me. I try not to...
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